sweet secrets :D

2008-11-24T15:27:00.004+03:00

ii watched some ballet and r.gym montages today. there was this montage featuring the life of ballerinas and the words in white that appeared, are so very true. it's etched inside, somehow.

"A life of heartbreak.

Fat is the Enemy.

Loneliness is your Friend.

Pain is the Price"

just something to think about.

and watching how they train made me feel so inspired to work out :D all the gym body conditioning exercises, stretching etc. 80 "fu ji" [ii'm not sure what is it in english, but pillow knows] 40 with a dictionary and 40 without (: and it's actually good that ii worked out today to tire myself out. then it'll be easier to sleep tonight.

oh and we've finished the whole variation of grand pas classique :DD my feet kill.

and and ii've found an awesome CD to listen to while working out. and doing housework. "Street Vibes 7" *nods head*

it took me ages to find that picture. ii won't tell you what ii typed into the search engine - that would be giving the secret away. go figure. isn't that one of the most beautiful things you've ever seen?

ii really really want to go away. someplace wild. wild and yet peaceful. away from the mudane-ness of singapore. it's so predictable here. wake up; eat breakfast; go to school; cca; come home; dinner; homework; sleep. so enclosed, so secure, and yet so suffocating. how can anyone stand living like this? ii can't say how much ii want sit alone on a dune and watch the stars all night. here, it's lamp posts and traffic lights.

Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short,
The music won’t last.

Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask "How are you?"
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores running through your head?

You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

Ever told your child, "We’ll do it tomorrow?"
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch, let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time to call and say "Hi?"

You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift…

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before your song is over.

"Slow Dance" by David L. Weatherford

2008-11-20T16:58:00.002+03:00

it's a ballet-themed picture cos we're doing repertoire in pointe class now and ii'm also reading Eva Ibbotson's A Company of Swans. so adorable right (:

and FIINAALLYYYY the internet's working! ii've been having spastic fits the past few days just itching to go on the computer! after four days, my inbox is flooded with mails. mostly from Facebook. *sigh*

and ii had so much to say the past few days, ii've forgotten all about it now! grrrr... oh ii remember. miss wee keeps calling on me all the time during pointe class - every single lesson! if ii get a jellybean for every time she's said my name, ii'd be diabetic. and that reminds me, ii have to go search grande pas classique or ii'm gonna look wierd on sunday when everyone does an attitude and ii do petite retiree. but ii really can't imagine doing the whole variation on pointe. my feet kill even before ii reach two-thirds =[

ii LOVE LOVE LOVE ♥ my junior siow pin! :D she's such a dear! don't ask me why. ii've got a hundred billion reasons but ii'm not going to list them all out here. but ii love you! :D

watched national treasure 2 today (: as usual, ii gave unnecessary sound effects :P my sister wasn't too pleased XD

another short post. ah well

2008-11-13T16:05:00.002+03:00

lots and lots of things to do during the holidays!

- revise! [urgh!]
- tidy up my room
- beg my parents to let me have a hammock in the balcony :DD
- CHRISTMAS SHOPPING! [can't wait can't wait!] :P
- go to egypt!
- vegetate in genting
- WATCH TWILIGHT!
- get my piano teacher off my back for not practicing
- christmas cards!

trained for soooo long today =[ close to four hours! and ii brought my ribbon stick and we didn't do ribbon at all -_-"

and there was this woman on the train with a killer B.O ii mean, seriously. never heard of deodorant? or antiperspirant?

what a short post.

*sigh*

2008-11-12T17:05:00.002+03:00

ii'm blogging again! ii bet pillow and keatkeat are peeing in their pants in happiness :P

tuition in the morning, lunch at pasta mania with yuqing. and then hung around the christmas card section at Popular for almost half an hour trying to decide which set to buy -_-" and then hung around laser flair looking for clearance sales stuff. and then came home, napped for a bit, then watched Cat In The Hat :P then shower, piano practice, out for dinner. what a pathetic day.

ii'm thinking. ii really really hate singapore. ii hate how ii pratically have no life here. ii hate that every weekend is the same predictable routine. in doha there was a party at someone's compound every weekend, for god's sake! oh and ii hate how there's never any stars in the sky. ii hate how ii have to get up so freaking early every morning and get home so freaking late every night. oh and ii hate school. ii hate eating the same food every day, ii hate how so many people push their belts so low till they look pregnant. and ii hate how they try to act so hardcore. it really isn't fooling anybody.

okay, deep breaths. ii pump up my blood pressue tomorrow during training.

oh oh ii was looking though sophie's birthday pics which nick uploaded on facebook. and there's this pic with lizanne and richard g. with uncle ken and allyson and dylon in the background. there's an example of how big the chances of meeting someone else you know in doha is. take a picture in a restaurant and someone you know may be sitting in a table next to you. oh and the restaurant was Applebees' (: wayy better than those shit "restaurants' you get here.

ah crap. this just sucks balls.

2008-10-24T16:41:00.005+03:00

came in to school way earlier than supposed to! also because ii didn't get the message about coming to class at 8.30. ii was so annoyed; ii could've slept for an hour longer! but then pillow came too and we went to the tao huay shop with huiyi for breakfast.

maths was pretty okay, ii actually understood the stuff. but me and pillow were so tired, every time there was a pause, we dunked our heads on the table. strange what tao huay can do to you. or maybe it was the rain.

and then it was bio (which was practical) quite fun, pillow made rosti. or rather, her version of rosti. raw tomatos sliced up -_-" but it was pretty funny :P

during recess we kind of walked around, didn't really eat much. ii just wasn't hungry. it was still pretty grey outside but it wasn't drizzling. somehow, it reminded me alot of being in london. london was always that wet and gloomy. but it made me miss RAD alot. too much, in fact. that was so long ago. well, if last august is considered ages ago. fun times, those. especially the sneaking out bits and illegal slumber parties (:

and what ii really really really want now is to go to Switzerland. actually, any Scandinavian county will do. ii just want to sit on the Alps on the grass and look at the sky. the air is so fresh there, it makes you see things differently. and there's no place else where you can be as free.

ii feel lik eating jellybeans now. but my dad's cautioning me about my sugar intake =[ ii'll stop once ii've finished the Starburst and Toblerone and Smarties (:

alpengluhen -

2008-10-19T16:32:00.003+03:00

today was so in between. ii forgot to bring my umbrella and ii got caught in the ran while walking up to fort canning for ballet from funan =[ and it made me feel so urgh and ii wasn't in the mood for dancing cos ii was soaked to the bone and my hair looked like rats tails. and then ii had muscle ache from all that gym and it took me forever to get down to my split =[

and then it was still raining swiss wahaes and mushrooms when my pointe class ended but sylvia offered to give me a lift home (: and then ii was planning to dump my stuff at home and go to the library cos the sky looked so much better. didn't turn out that way in the end though. god decided to be mean and made the angels cry.

and my sis and ii got into a fight, the physical one. and then she decided to be freaking annoying and poured hot milo down my hair. and then ii totally refused to talk to her and then ii pushed her and she nearly fell out of the kitchen. and to get me back she kept turning off the wireless so ii couldn't use the internet.

what a mouthful.

and ii feel so off, like something's missing and ii don't know what it is. and a few days ago pris said something along the lines of me not really smiling the whole year. and ii didn't understand. cos ii thought ii was pretty okay. and ii was pretty sure ii did laugh or smile quite alot. ii mean, ii know ii'm still missing doha and my entourage but ... ii felt pretty okay.

urgh. ii hate feeling like this.

2008-10-17T17:38:00.004+03:00

today was AWESOME (: ii love the new seating arrangement!

it's huiyi, rachel, me, pillow on the second row

and chunnie, keatkeat, bernie, min yee on the third row (:

and ii can turn around and talk to them any time ii want!

yupyup. and ii had so much fun poking rachel in the ribs! her reactions are HUGE. the first few times ii poked her she literally jumped off her chair XD and it was during bio! and mrs lim was like "rachel..." cos she couldn't see me poking her XD haha

and then during recess ii bought ovalteenies. and ii was munching them throughout maths and chem and english XD must be the reason why ii was so high today; OVERDOSE OF CAFFEINE :P ahaahaa.

AND AND AND during english we were doing comprehension and there was this word in the passage "concubine" and mr searle asked us what it meant. then huiyi said "XIAO LAO PO" and mr searle, being ang moh, didn't understand and he heard "sell pork" :P and he was like "no, concubines don't sell pork!" and then all of us laughed, pillow nearly falling off her chair. and then after that pillow kept asking "what do concubines do?" and we both answered "SELL PORK!" :PP both of us were pretty high over the ovalteenies XD

and then rachel suddenly said bubbles (as in the powerpuff girls) and ii announced "okay. ii'll be mojo jojo and pillow can be my turban" :P and then pillow said something about turning my baby against me and ii decided to change my turban to keatkeat. and the pillow said she'd conspire with keat2 so ii changed it again to chunnie XD haha! chunniie is INCORRUPTABLE. or was it uncorruptable? oh who cares. you get my point.

and the pillow said, there's is no was both of us can sit next to each other, we'd both fail our O'Levels XD

and we went to macs for lunch with keatkeat and huiyi and huiyi brought her video cam! so she was videoing us all as we walked down the slope to macs! and commenting about keat's gay umbrella with lace XD it was so funny!

and then on the way back she started to interview me

huiyi: ruiyun ii'm going to interview you!

me: okay!

huiyi: what's your name?

me: monkey!

huiyi: what do you do besides eat bananas?

me and pillow at the same time: SWING ON TREES!

huiyi: do you know anyone with three nipples?

me: do ii know what sdgsdhfdfd?

pillow: ii heard "do you know anyone with three nipples?"

me: yeah ii do!

huiyi: who?

me: HUIYI!!!

ahaha... and then ii forgot what else she said. oh but she interviewed pillow too!

oh ii feel so good. ii'm blogging and facebooking and doing this quiz at the same time! ii'm a MASTER MULTI-TASKER! as you can see, the ovalteenies hasn't worn off yet :P

gym was okay, we started at around 2.45. ii did better on my ball routine (: OH HAPPY DAYYY! and then my juniors siow pin and rebecca asked me to teach them the attitude step and ii couldn't help remembering how beverley used to have problems with that step too. dang. ii miss her heaps! *sighs*

ii still ache all over. but not so much now.

II CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDEEEEE. ii'm going to rent my books again! and buy my shorties! AND TAKE A LOTTA PICTURES! ii swear, my facebook photo album is getting stale. mosquitoes are gonna start breeding!

BANANA CHIQUITA!

2008-10-14T16:24:00.003+03:00

today was a quite a bad day. ii failed chemistry, and only passed emaths by two marks. two careless marks lost.

and if that wasn't enough, ii still had training. and after not training for almost one and a half months, ii'm extremely stiff. and teng didn't help one bit. my left leg split has always been weak. it takes me ages to get down to 180 degrees. ii just happened to be pushing myself to 180 when she walked by and said "how come you're so fat? you're so stiff now!" ii couldn't care less about the "fat" bit. it's not like she's any thinner. but the "stiff" bit really stung. cos ii've tried for eons to push myself that much farther and ii'm sorry but the rest of the team are still wayy better. even my juniors. it's so embarrassing when ii've got to ask them how the routine should be done.

and ii trained so hard today, throwing the rope up trying to get the step right, my arm is sore. it hurts like crazy when ii lift it *sighs*

and when ii was on the train today there was this guy sitting across me. ii couldn't help staring cos one of his eyelashes was WHITE. ii mean the whole set of eyelashes. wierd, ii tell you.

okaye, these popups are really annoying me now.

the good thing is: II'M NOT GETTING RETAINED! (: oh joyy... :DD

banana chiquita -

2008-10-13T12:44:00.004+03:00

ii'm fookin pissed. ii mean, seriously. as if ii haven't got enough to make me woebegone.

end of year results - ii know for certain ii did SHIT so yeah. all that about getting retained. cos ii REALLY DON'T WANNA BE RETAINED.
cca. ii know, like, what? but ii'm like the worst out of everyone on the team, it doesn't exactly boost my morale. and ii end up working like shit, and the coach still thinks ii don't work hard enough.
stupid bitch anisa. HOW DARE SHE INVITE JADU TO HER SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY?! huh?! HUH???! she deserves punishment. something along the lines of fire ants would be appropriate. or maybe blood-sucking spiders. ii know this makes it seem as though ii've got OCD but ii can't help it. it's not fair, ii'm stuck in this shithole and she's there having a go. URGH.

and ii can't believe ii gave up the opportunity to go for a shopping spree today where everything was on discount. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. ii actually went to the LIBRARY. ohmygod. ii must be having some wierd hormonal change that's making me potentially psycho. and one of the books ii borrowed was "This Must Be Love". pretty much a modern "A Midsummer Nights Dream". and Helena in the story is seriously egoistical. ewww. ii mean, "... but ii managed to look as unpertubed and dignified as ever," geez. get a life. Helena's got some serious issues with her mentality.

and the one good thing is ii've got the class beach party to look forward to! (: it just came up to me today, and yup. details aren't finalised yet.

and ii have 5 gatherings at my place in 4 weeks. and they're all my parent's friends. this is SO. NOT. FAIR. ii really don't have a life here. and richard's complaining about his Alevels in doha. geez.

oh great. now ii've lost my bookmark *sigh* ii think ii'll thump it out on the piano. you know, kismet should really warn us when we're gonna have a shit day. maybe give us a thunderstorm or hailstones. then ii'll know when to seize the, you know, carp or whatever it is.

GUILLOTINES AND GORE.

2008-10-07T15:06:00.006+03:00

today was AWESOME (: exams are over (woots!) and ii have shopping and more shopping to look forward to! PICNIC DRESS, HERE II COME!

went to priscilla's house with huiyi for a movie marathon (: ii seriously feel spoiled when ii go to her place, her dad made us english breakfast again (: at home, that's a rarity. we watched DOA &heats;, half of enchanted, 200 pound beauty - dominique came outta his room to watch it too and ii think he must've thought it wierd that there were three girls in front of him crying at the same time XD and pris was holding the tissue box and passing tissues around :P and and and princess diaries (: ii swear, Miachel Moscovitz (cutie!) looks exactly like selim with his hair gelled up at the independence day ball! the resemblance was so similiar, it was freaky! and it reminded me of doha. alot. *sighs* when am ii ever going to stop missing that place?

we had fights over my baby! haha. but damn, he smells good (: must be because of priscilla's moisturizer. and she got so pissed at me and huiyi for putting him on the dining table :P

and ii just found that my stinking speakers aren't working so ii've got to use my sister's com to watch videos. urgh. and as if ii don't have to put up with her hormones now.

ii feel bored... even though there's like a million things to do. run around screaming with a scissors, for one. or slide down the banisters, possibly endangering my life, which is pretty pathetic.

ii can't wait for shopping tomorrow! spotlight in the morning with my mom and pris, and then pris and ii are gonna hit the shops in the afternoon! :DD ii need shorties! and those cute baby doll tees.

ii was searching for pics on kristen stewart and robert pattinson and it's so annoying when desperados post those tacky images saying "ii ♥ edward cullen" on those stupid note paper you can find on those stupid sites. it's freakin annoying.

satin and sadism -

2008-09-13T12:49:00.002+03:00

we had to watch a video of elephants being culled during english yesterday. it hurt so much just to watch it, so much that it made me cry. how cruel us humans can be, killing for the sake of money. just for ivory and for elephant meat. we're so heartless. ii told my parents about it over dinner and my mom showed me this video her friend had sent her.

on these chinese farms, foxes, minks, rabbits are skinned alive. they're still alive and kicking. are we so sadistic, so cruel, so ruthless, that we don't even let them have a painless death? it makes me so ashamed to be a chinese. they beat the poor animals on the ground, with sticks etc. and these animals are left outside at extreme temperatures. the animals are so desperate to get away, the throw themselves against the metal cages and bite themselves. are we the reincarnation of the devil?

can you imagine how much pain, how excruciating it is, having your neck stepped on repeatedly? or being skinned alive? or having your head bashed against the floor over and over again? the poor animals, they can only whimper, their soundless screams no one can hear.

please go to http://www.peta.org/feat/ChineseFurFarms/index.asp

and take a look at humanity's acts of "kindness"

2008-08-26T15:37:00.002+03:00

urgh, ii'm having such a bad day today...

painter guys came today to paint my room. okay. the dumped all my stuff onto my bed, washed their paintbrushes in my sink, scratched my new study table (ii don't know how they did it) and soaked my bathroom floor. and as if that wasn't enough, a suicidal beetle flew onto my bra. that did it. ii was so pissed at whacked it outta the window.

and then ii had an argument with my mom yesterday about my attitude problem and we got it resolved today. not so bad. my dad made my go out and buy dinner and he drove me there. not a problem. and then he said he'd pick me up from the carpark basement where the motorbikes are. ii didn't really think much of it until ii was standing in the basement with my hands loaded with plastic bags. ii was waiting so freakin long, and then there were all these people staring at me. and if that wasn't enough , all these motorcylists were staring at me too as they parked their bikes. as if ii was some creature in the zoo, those stupid morons. and then when ii got annoyed at waiting so long ii called my dad and he was like "can't you wait?" and ii replied "it's creepy here!" and then when he came he totally refused to talk to me, like, HOW IS THAT MY FAULT???

the good thing was my room is now painted a gorgeous lilac. and ii've got to put up with the disgusting smell of tinner that comes with it.

spent nearly an hour and a half on the piano cos there was nothing much to do and ii couldn't sit still at the dining table. at least my pieces sound better than just random tinklings.

chatting with cameron, he's changed quite a bit. he's very... different now. he was much sweeter, ii think, that time. but ii haven't spoken to him in such a long time, ii could've forgotten. but he's still very lovable :DD

banana chiquita -

2008-08-25T15:40:00.002+03:00

haha! pris is so psyched by seeing bella and edward together (: they look so sweet right? *giggles* really makes one wistful, huh?

ii was so cold in the morning ii was pratically wrapping myself up in my sweater! and ii always end up sleeping when it's cold or raining [they usually go hand in hand together] and it was JUST SO COMFY. then someone banged on the table waking me up from my beauty sleep! grrr... LYNETTE LIN! she came just to ask me whether we had training today. ii wouldn't know, would ii?? which reminds me, ii need to ask her if we have training tmr...

ii feel like such a good kid now, ii'm actually trying to pay attention in class! no more daydreaming or falling asleep, EOYs are coming. ii can't wait till it's over! ii'd better get good grades, ii really don't wanna get retained.

it's so cool that ii finally went online today after so long and cool people are online (: not the usual gays! WOOOOOHOOOOO! probably because summer hols are coming to an end, everyone's back in doha. AWESOME. ii was just talking to cameron, HE LIVES IN JAKARTA!

Cameron says:

thts nice to hear